The Imitation Game — a “must see” film

225px-Alan_Turing_photoOne of our family’s greatest pleasures is treating ourselves on a semi-regular basis to the movies.

While we enjoy a variety of genres, we tend toward action, adventure, or anything we can watch with the younger Carricks.

Occasionally, we encounter a film that warrants special mention. Last night, we were lucky enough to view one such: The Imitation Game, starring Benedict Cumberbatch as Alan Turing, the genius British mathematician, logician, cryptologist and computer scientist who is credited with creating the first artificial intelligence, which was used to crack the German code machine known as Enigma.

If you haven’t seen it yet, don’t let the quiet media surrounding this one fool you. The theatre was packed — something the Carricks rarely, if ever, experience. Word is out — this will be the 2015 film you won’t want to miss.

Not only is the writing superb, and not only is it brilliantly executed by a number of today’s finest actors.

The story is also profoundly human.

We found it to be moving in a way few films are anymore.

The effect is, to some degree, heightened by a typically British sense of understatement. But that’s not the whole story.

Picture this: You are Alan Turing.

You have effectively reduced the horror of the Second World War by at least 2 years, saving an estimated 14 million lives. (Although there is no real way to nail down a statistic like this, most experts agree the number of lives saved by Turing’s work is very high.)

You have created a machine that is the father of all modern computing technology, changing the course of history undeniably and profoundly.

And yet, due to a quirk of your nature, a wrench thrown into your DNA prior to birth, and the erroneous, unforgiving mores of the time, you are somehow, inexplicably, not quite “good enough”.

When Turing died in 1954, only days before his 42nd birthday, most suspected suicide by cyanide poisoning.

He had been convicted of homosexual acts, which were criminal at the time, and as an alternative to enduring a prison sentence, was forced to undergo hormonal treatments, a form of chemical castration.

I’ve suffered depression in my younger years. Having lost a sibling to suicide, and having attempted suicide on a couple of occasions, I can only discuss my own experience.

The primary feeling is one of being “not good enough”.

In the case of Alan Turing, I can only shake my head.

If this brilliant, dedicated man, this scientist and patriot, could be reduced to such feelings, then perhaps that’s something we should all heed closely.

The next time I feel “not quite good enough”, I’m going to remember Alan Turing.

Then I’m going to smile at the absurdity of such feelings.

See the movie. I think you’ll like it.

Why I am Charlie

Charlie HebdoSadly, the first week of 2015 brought both shock and sorrow to much of the world, as yet another act of fervent violence has shaken our collective consciousness.

he drew firstOn January 7, masked gunmen entered the Paris offices of Charlie Hebdo killing 12 people including “Charb”, publishing director of the satirical weekly Charlie Hebdo Stéphane Charbonnier.

According to CNN, “The two brothers accused of carrying out the Charlie Hebdo attack, Cherif Kouachi and Said Kouachi, are dead. So is grocery store suspect Amedy Coulibaly, authorities said.”

What we may not know, and in fact may never truly comprehend, is what is stolen from us, as a global society, each time we are faced with racism, hatred, violence and atrocity.

In particular, acts of violence perpetrated in the name of God, Allah, or any religious deity, are so heinous as to be the stuff of social nightmare.

It’s been many years since I first questioned my own faith. I was thirteen, and found myself asking how any God, any almighty, all-powerful being, would allow children to suffer the way I’d suffered. It’s a question that has never been answered to my satisfaction.

Despite my own sometimes wavering faith, which dangled precariously by a thread throughout my youth, I’ve never felt the urge to ridicule the faithful. Nor have I ever wanted to publicly denounce any single religion or culture.

Being the adult survivor of childhood abuse, my life has been dedicated to peaceful living.

When Charlie was alive, I would not likely have been a supporter. In truth, I found some of those cartoon images to be in poor taste, harsh even.

But Charlie died on January 7.

Or, rather, he was murdered, along with eleven of his colleagues, said to have been chosen deliberately for execution.

And that changed everything.

When I say “I am Charlie”, it’s my attempt to state that freedom of expression is not some airy-fairy concept that can be tossed out with the current trends.

Freedom of SpeechFree speech is not the exclusive right of people with whom I happen to agree. Nor is it the domain of the rich, the powerful or the pious.

This thing we hold so dear, this right to say, both publicly and privately, what we believe, is something we must defend.

Silence never fed a child. It never rescued the abused, clothed the naked or educated the ignorant. Silence is the great enabler of all that is wrong with the world.

When I speak my personal truth, I don’t expect the world to listen.

Nor will I be silenced.

Because I believe, as many do, that freedom of speech and the torch-light of education are the greatest weapons we have against tyranny, oppression, hunger and ignorance.

Murder is always an act of evil, born of the parents Hatred and Ignorance.

It cannot and will not be justified by religious doctrine.

And that is why, for now and for all time, I am Charlie.

So ends 2014…not with a whimper, but with a smile.

XMas Blog 2014 10888741_10153394250349018_5768817702496801299_nIf you’ve been following the Carrick exploits on Facebook, twitter or at our site CarrickPublishing.com, then chances are you already know we’ve been blessed with a good year.

There’s been plenty of fun, friendship and family to carry us from 2013 till now, and we’ve managed to keep busy writing, publishing and raising this wonderful brood of ours.

EFD2 World Enough Cover FINALWithout a doubt, one of the high points was the fabulous launch party for World Enough and Crime, which was held on December 6 at Sleuth of Baker Street in Toronto.

As the year scuttles to a close, we’d like to take this opportunity to thank you all for your friendship, your readership and for just making our lives so very much brighter.

Happy New Year, everyone!

Donna and Alex Carrick

One day that changed the world….Lest we forget.

Nov.11-8On this day, at almost exactly this very moment thirteen years ago, our world changed forever.

The following is a commemorative post I wrote on September 11, 2011. I’d like to re-share it with you today:

Like most adults, I woke today filled with memories of that other morning, ten years ago, almost to the moment.

It had been a period of loss for our family. First my mother, unexpectedly at the age of 69 in early 2000. Next a dear aunt, then another — sisters of my mother. Then, on September 3, 2001, my husband Alex lost a beloved aunt, followed the very next day, September 4, by his father, Donald Carrick.

We returned to work on the morning of Monday, September 11 after a week of funerals. Already saddened, but relieved, at least, to put the heaviest of our grief behind us and get back to our normal routines.

It was just past 9 am. My office phone rang. It was one of my staff, a young lady, calling to say she would be a little late. “But Donna,” she added, “there’s something wrong in New York City. I don’t know what, but something’s happened at The Towers.”

I won’t pretend her first words chilled me. I had no idea, after all, what they meant. But her next sentences gave me pause. “It’s really scary,” she said. “Everything here is too quiet. There are no planes in the air — none.”

I put the phone down. I work for a major media organization, and at that time we were still connected with Canwest at the 1450 Don Mills Road building. I ran from my office on the 2nd floor up a half flight toward the big news screen on the 3rd floor.

Within moments, almost 200 of my friends and co-workers had joined me. In absolute silence we watched the newsman as he struggled to make sense of the first impact. He, and we, thought it must have been an accident. He spoke in reverence, pausing to find the right words. Clearly it was not a typical news report. He was just a guy with a microphone and a camera, trying to tell the world what had happened.

And then, before our eyes, in one flash of horror, the unthinkable occurred. The second plane. As he spoke, facing the camera, behind his head we saw it pass, turn, and collide with the second tower.

And we all knew.

There was no cry of horror in our building. No stifled collective gasp — no outrage spoken in words.

There was only a deep, unbroken silence as the knowledge flooded us.

During the days that followed our hearts broke time and again, with each new discovery, each fresh image that was presented to us. We were filled with an unprecedented grief, and a love for our brothers and sisters in New York City.

The phrase “Ground Zero” came into our language. But we know the damage of that day was not isolated to the towers. Not at all. Its impact ripples to this day through the hearts and minds of people everywhere. None are left untouched.

So here we are in Canada on a beautiful Toronto morning. What has changed in our world?

Ten years have come…and gone. A heightened sense of security worldwide has restricted our freedoms in ways we might never have imagined. We’ve suffered suspicion… against our neighbours, from our neighbours. Friendships have grown, or have been set aside. Babies have been born, and loved ones have died.

But that moment, standing with hundreds of my co-workers, friends all, entrenched in the silent horror of first awareness, before even the newsman knew for sure…..

…that was a pivotal moment.

A moment that cannot be erased, nor can it be trivialized, nor should it ever be.

All that has come to pass since that day has been acted on an altered stage.

And now, ten years later, we still seek peace. Too elusive. Too vague a concept. Our global psyche too cluttered with offenses given and received, too filled with suspicion and hatred. Forgive us our trespasses, as we will forgive those who trepass….

Instead of a day committed to reliving that horror, as if anyone could or would ever forget, I pray we will dedicate this day to seeking peaceful solutions to our differences.

That’s my fervent wish on this day, ten years to the moment later.

Donna Carrick
September 11, 2011

For the love of books…

Arthur Ellis Award FinalistIn June, I had the very great honour of being named one of five finalists for the prestigious Arthur Ellis Award for Best Short Story.

The title that received this nomination was Watermelon Weekend, from our Crime anthology THIRTEEN, by the Mesdames of Mayhem.

I’m proud of this story. It was written with an understanding of how families work, and how their fragile dynamics may or may not be destroyed by encounters of the criminal kind.

But then, the truth is that I feel this way about all of my stories.

Maybe it’s my genre, which allows me to go beyond the nuts and bolts of “whodunit” and delve into the humanity of crime, or maybe it’s the stories themselves, concerned as they are with suffering and survival.

For whatever reason, my novels and short stories have touched readers, and for this I am eternally grateful.

There can be no greater joy for an author.

Exciting news from Donna Carrick and Carrick Publishing!

Donna CarrickSome exciting news to share with you all today:

The Short-List nominees for the prestigious Arthur Ellis Awards (Crime Writers of Canada) were announced last night.

Mesdames-Thirteen-Cover-187x300I was thrilled and honoured to learn that my story Watermelon Weekend from our crime anthology THIRTEEN was short-listed in the Best Short Story category, along with fellow THIRTEEN contributor Sylvia Maultash Warsh for her story The Emerald Skull. (Carrick Publishing, 2013)

Congratulations to nominees in all categories, especially to yet another fellow-contributor, Melodie Campbell, whose book The Goddaughter’s Revenge (Orca Books) was short-listed for Best Novella!

It was indeed a great night for the Mesdames of Mayhem, and for Carrick Publishing as well!
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The truth about “US” ~ Donna Carrick, Jan. 26, 2014

US

“US”.

Small, barely 5 inches across, and virtually invisible on the corner of my bedroom wall, next to the closet. The only way to hide it more effectively while still hanging it would be to display it IN the closet.

Created nearly 50 years ago by pouring plaster of Paris into a hand-carved impression in the sand.

Is it art?

Only of the most rudimentary, childish kind.

Is it valuable?

Not to anyone but me.

What, then, is the truth about “US”? Why is this talisman, of no intrinsic value and known to no one other than myself, given space on my wall? Why have I treasured it these nearly 50 years, and why, when I am gone, will others find it, sigh, and carelessly toss it into the discard bin?

This, my friends and gentle readers, is a mystery I have chosen to share with you.

More than a talisman, or a “writer’s prompt”, this strange plaque, still decorated with the sand of Fundy Bay and its original paint, is a vessel of memories, a “soul-jar” if you will.

Easter2010 011I was four, and my sister, Debbie, would have been six. We spent those summers on Parlee Beach, leaping over seaweed in the salt water and playing endlessly on the shimmering sand.

An arts-and-crafts instructor gathered all the children together, and showed us how to dig a ‘pocket’ into the firm, damp sand, then draw a picture into it. Once the image was cast, we would pour the plaster from her large bucket, letting it sit until it hardened. Then we would paint the images.

I made a leaf, complete with ladybug, proudly painting it green and red and black, but was heartbroken when it slipped from my hands and broke.

To console me, Sis gave me hers, saying, “See, Donna, it’s US.”

Years later, going through my childhood possessions in my parents’ house, I found ‘US’. Debbie was already gone by then. But I remembered the day, as clearly as one can remember a summer day from long ago.

And ever since, it has held a place on my wall.

When I am gone, one of my children will no doubt hold it up, shake his head, and say, “What the hell is this?”

It won’t matter any more, at that point. They can throw it out.

But so long as I live, this promise stands: not a day will go by that I don’t look at it at least once, briefly, and remember…